Can I bake a cake?

Well I have been married for a little over 3 months now. I’m happy, sort of, yes, I think I am. Tomorrow is my husband’s birthday and I have been planning this day for quiet some time now. But as fate wills nothing is happening as per plan because I’m a daughter in law and nobody listens to the daughter in law. Basically, in laws are programmed to say no to what you’ve planned.

My sister in law is a baker (she wanted to be a chocolatier, she settled for this) (she is not that good though, to be honest!). So I wanted to bake a cake for my husband’s first birthday with me and wohoo, my MiL said no because my SiL is baking one and that should suffice. Because hey, hey hey who gives a damn about a newly weds wishes?

And then they say, daughter in laws are real bitches, but who is the bitch here?

Bollywood Songs

I was listening to the FM and the song ‘agar mein kahu’ from lakshaya was playing, which made me fantasize about the beauty of the girl the being sung to. This made me think that why all songs are sung in praise of a girl? I mean when in reality girls are trated badly and are not praised adequately and in the most gentlemanly way or with decency or ettiquette then why write such beautiful lines in the first place? I mean no guy is taking inspiration from thee beautiful and respectful manner.
Guys today clearly take inspiration and follow the path and language depicted in emiway’s ‘machayenge’.
I guess song writers can just drop all this effort of elaborating a woman’s beauty because their songs are only used as BG tracks in marriage videos.
They should instead write songs in which a woman is expressing her love for a man who treats her as an object. Because we women are madly in love when we love someone and instead of objectifying guys we genuinely praise them. Also, we could call it a stop towards feminism. So, fin.

Do you care?

There are days when you truly and genuinely believe that the other person doesn’t care. They think they do, but the same isn’t reflected in their actions. Initially I wasn’t this concerned as I was developing my feelings and taking my time. But now, when things have hit me hard I sometimes find it unbearable to take the distance.
Maybe it is because of this over attachment that I’m getting hurt or maybe his behaviour is hurtful. I feel the latter to be true. I want to run behind him and claim his time, but I won’t. I want him going crazy for me, and I won’t let him take me for granted. So come what may, I won’t call him from today. Not before 10 in the night. Let me also see what he does, and what he has to say. I’ll tell him if I’m busy. I’ll cut calls just the way he does. I won’t make him talk to anybody on my own. I’ll claim my space and give him his. Lets see what this brings, in any case things aren’t that smooth anyway.

Why do kids suffer?

Everyone has faced this at one point or the other in their life. The weird silence and whom to favor situation when your parents fight or end up in a high pitched argument.
I mean I know dad that you work very hard everyday in the scorching heat and the freezing cold and the unbearable sand storms. I also understand that you can be under stress and tension related to work. We should give you some space and should not over burden you with senseless home issues. But, I also understand that you should give us time as well. Your care, your love, your guidance that we look forward to. I mean a fluctuating attitude is difficult to tackle and sometimes hard to bear and cope up with.
We stay under constant terror of what might upset you and you’ll just burst all out on us. It’s terrifying and we hate it.
If you have any tension share it with us. We won’t give free advice until asked for. Promise.
But the terror and sadness and chaos that prevails when you guys argue and misinterpret each other is pathetic and we can’t take it.
Please.

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Venting it out!

This is my first blog and the idea to blog came to mind because I could not vent my feelings at the people I love. So I thought of using a blogging platform to do the same.

Emotions play a trivial role in ones life. Mine are over the top right now. Being held responsible for all the faults is something that might sound okay in the beginning and you might just laugh it off but it becomes dreadful in times to come. Presently I am responsible for any thing that goes wrong in the house. God knows why!
I mean just because I’m fat, like sleeping, and not able to study to the best of what my parents want me to, anger monger and the elder sibling and yes a girl. Are these reasons sufficient enough?

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